“So now I live with the confidence that there is nothing in the universe with the power to separate us from God’s love. I’m convinced that his love will triumph over death, life’s troubles, fallen angels, or dark rulers in the heavens. There is nothing in our present or future circumstances that can weaken his love. There is no power above us or beneath us—no power that could ever be found in the universe that can distance us from God’s passionate love, which is lavished upon us through our Lord Jesus, the Anointed One!”
Romans 8:38-39

The year 2016 was the year of plenty for me and my family. Several things started to come to fruition. God had sent me a publisher for the book he promised to publish, and after walking a pretty lonely road for nearly ten years the Lord blessed me with leading a prophetic company of mighty women of God. I began building new relationships. The Lord had also answered my five-year long prayer to move to a house in the country and giving us a wonderful testimony of his goodness along the way. God had certainly revealed His faithfulness to us in that year! I thought this was it, the big shift in our lives we have been waiting for, and that things were going to start flowing in a constant positive direction. I was believing to fully walk and live in the promise land when suddenly I realized I had entered a new wilderness season. December of 2016 my family was attacked with illness after illness lasting up until March. Publishing my book was taking longer than I had desired and I had several relational issues arise. Yes, my family had many blessings much to be thankful for, but in the midst of the blessings I began to get weary. My focus shifted from the blessings to the overwhelming disappointments and issues that surrounded me. I kept thinking what have I done? Where did I go wrong? There were times where I desired to give up, but then suddenly God would bring me a small ray of hope leading me to the next breadcrumb on what seemed this dark dim path.

The year 2017 wasn’t much different and going into 2018 things seem to brighten up a bit but this year has still had its obstacles. Leading into to the year 2019 and reflecting on this time I have realized a few things about this wilderness experience. I have learned to love people when it is difficult to do so, learning to not be disappointed when things don’t turn out the way I thought they would, and learning to give continual grace and mercy to those who unknowingly hurt me. The Lord has used these last few years to make me stronger and I have realized in the midst of these trials that God is good. He has never stopped being good and he will never stop being good. He is also faithful and will be there for me even when I can’t feel him, even when life gets hard. I have also learned that if I didn’t walk through some of these things, learning to persevere in the midst of the weariness, I would not be as strong as I am today. I have learned to only receive validation from the Lord, and not from others. I have learned to love others even when they have not loved me back and to keep pursuing love towards them because that is who Jesus is for me. The Lord told me last year “If you can’t love the brother or sister in Christ who has wounded you how will you ever love the terrorist with a gun to your head.”

Love like this doesn’t come from within ourselves it can only be gained through the love of Jesus Christ knowing that He loves us so much he died for us and he would do it again. When we feel like we have become so weary with nothing more to give we must go the God and receive His love for us not be disappointed when we don’t receive it from others. When life gets hard we must get in the word and read what God says about us knowing that He has us in the palm of his hand even when it doesn’t feel like it. God is our provider he provides our every need. He provides comfort, peace, love, relationship, finances and so much more!

What do you need God to provide for you with today? Have you been weary in doing good? Have you sown and sown and not seen the harvest? I want to encourage you this day to go to Jesus and receive from him whatever it is you are in need from him today. Ask him for a ray of hope to enter into your life to know that he sees you and he’s got you. He will provide for you because that’s who he is. He has an answer to every problem, a solution to every challenge, and he wants to fill you up this day. Sit in His presence thanking him for your blessings, even if it’s the last thing you want to do. Allow His word to be a revelation to you in the midst of the storm. He will come through for you! He will never leave you nor forsake you it’s impossible for him to do so, He can’t go against himself! Let God’s love flow over you this day and seep into every crack and every crevice that might be untouched.

“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8

“The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love. I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.” Jeremiah 31:3

“but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.” Isaiah 40:31

“And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19

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