And then God answered: “Write this.
Write what you see.
Write it out in big block letters
so that it can be read on the run.
This vision-message is a witness
pointing to what’s coming.
It aches for the coming—it can hardly wait!
And it doesn’t lie.
If it seems slow in coming, wait.
It’s on its way. It will come right on time.”
Habakuk 2:2-3 (MSG)
When I as eighteen years old I did an internship at a Christian ministry in Texas. During my time there we would have various retreats that we were required to attend. My favorite retreat that we did was the “Vision Retreat,” which was two and half days of fasting and praying about God’s vision for our lives. Along with fasting food we also fasted talking to one another. We did this to help us hear clearly from the Lord during those few days. When the vision retreat began I was so tired I think that I slept the whole first day of the retreat, and by that evening I still hadn’t heard anything from the Lord. I was growing weary, and I remember crying out to the Lord saying, “God I need to hear from you what is it you want me to do?” I heard the Lord say, “you are going to help anorexic and bulimic women.” This came out of nowhere, and was certainly not what I was expecting to hear. I thought I had a pretty good idea going into the retreat what God had planned for my life. I know I could sing a bit, and had written some songs so I thought that I was going to do something with worship, or music. Along with that the Lord gave me several other things to ponder that weekend, and I walked away feeling confident that I knew what he had planned for my life.
A about a year later I graduated from the internship, and went back living in the real world once again. I soon found myself living day to day being pulled away from that vision that the Lord had given me at the retreat. In 2011 as a stay at home wife, and mother of two boys I cried out once again to the Lord in desperation, “I know you called me to do more than this what is it you want to me to do Lord?!” I heard a quick reply back, “I want you to write a book. It’s going to be called The Unbalanced Eater, and it’s going to be about your eating disorder.” I was shocked, not only did the Lord answer me, but once again it confirmed what he told me so many years before this moment. There was a ten-year span between what the Lord told me at the vision retreat, and what he told me that day.
At the time, I didn’t believe I could write a book. I was not a writer, and I never learned how to properly write in school. In fact, with my first college paper on my favorite subject at the time –music, I ended up failing! After the assignment was finished, the teacher handed all the graded papers back to the students except for me. She came up to me after class, handed me my paper, and asked “what happened?” I had failed my paper because I didn’t know how to write a paper in the first place. I had never been great at grammar, and to this day probably still couldn’t properly diagram a sentence. Even though all that had happened in my life after God told me to write a book, so I sat down at the iPad, and willingly began to type out my story. When I first began I wasn’t even fully healed, but over time with each area the Lord was teaching me. Once I would get through that particular subject, I would type it all out. The Unbalanced Eater took five years to complete, but I finally got it finished!
Since writing the book the Lord has recently led me to new callings that He desires me to do, therefore I know the vision can change, which I will be talking about in a later blog. Writing The Unbalanced Eater book was the start to ministry that God chose for my life. I believe it will help anorexic, and bulimic women, but I needed to start with the first step to get to step number two. I could have possibly got there quicker than I did, but even still, it is never too late to get started doing what God is telling us to do.
I want to encourage you today, if you do not have a vision for your life to seek the Lord and ask him what it is he desires you to do. You may not know how to hear from God, but I assure you if have Jesus in your heart and you seek him, he will make Himself known to you. The Lord can speak to us in various ways; we may see the same scripture several days in a row, perhaps if you close your eyes the Lord will give you a vision, or a thought that you know is not you will suddenly come to you. Those are just a few ways that God can speak to us. It says in John 10:27-28 (TPT) “My own sheep will hear my voice and I know each one, and they will follow me. I give to them the gift of eternal life and they will never be lost and no one has the power to snatch them out of my hands.” God is usually speaking to us more often than we even realize.
There may be others of you that have heard from God, and you have a vision for your life, but you feel that you are not capable accomplishing this vision. You may think “there is no way I could possibly do that,” but remember that with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! (Matthew 19:26) There is a quote I love, “God doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the called.” Whatever God is calling you to do he will qualify you do it. We do not do things by our might or our power, but it is by his spirit says the Lord. (Zechariah 4:6) We trust God by stepping out in faith doing what he says. Just like when he told me to write a book and I was not qualified by the world’s standard to do so, but it didn’t matter because God had qualified me to do it. When we are walking out the things God is telling us to do in obedience then we are usually most fulfilled in life. When we run from what God is telling us to do we can find ourselves like Jonah frustrated, operating in fear, and running in the opposite direction.
I encourage you to seek the Lord to help you flesh out the steps that he desires you take to fulfill what He is calling you do. You might be thinking “it’s been years since I looked at my vision,” You may be thinking “that time is now over,” but that isn’t true. If you are still here than God has a plan and purpose for your life. It’s never too late to begin again, and walk in the calling that God has destined for you.
As you begin seeking more of God’s vision for your life you may receive the big picture, or you may just get the first step. God will give you what you need when you need it as you seek Him. When you get a vision be sure to write it down and make it plain like it says in Habakuk 2. Keep the vision in front of you, and trust that God will bring into fruition at the perfect time.