“Out of my deep anguish and pain I prayed, and God, you helped me as a father. You came to my rescue and broke open the way into a beautiful and broad place. Now I know, Lord, that you are for me, and I will never fear what man can do to me.” Psalms 118:5-6
Over the last few years during my quiet times with the Lord, I would often hear him whisper to me, “I am bringing you into a broad place.” When I first heard the Lord speak this, I was immediately excited, believing that God was going to lead me into an incredible place where all my dreams would come true. The broad place, in my opinion, was a place of breakthrough or changes in circumstances that would launch me into the promises of God.
Many months passed by without any physical change or progression taking place; however, I continued believing holding onto hope that the “broad place” was coming. The months were droning on when I had this epiphany that perhaps there was something I could do to move into this “broad place” that the Lord continued speaking to me. So I asked the Lord, “is there anything I needed to do to move this process along?” but I heard nothing in return. So out of my fleshly strength and efforts, I began intermittent fasting/praying through 2018 trying to get something to move, but despite my efforts, nothing changed.
You can imagine at this point that disappointment was settling in as I waited month after month for this paradigm shift of the broad place to show up in my life. After all, I heard this from the Lord…right? Months turned into years as I was growing exhausted and disheartened in expectation of the “broad place” that felt like it was never going to show.As the “broad place” continued to not come into fruition, I began crying out to God. “You said you were bringing me into a broad place…so where is it, Lord?” Like a spoiled child throwing a tantrum, I was pounding my fists on the ground crying out for God to bring me into this promised “broad place.” After a little over two years of nothing changing, nothing happening, no broad place to be found, I had come to the end of myself.
One day I was in my quiet time with the Lord lying completely still on my bed disappointed, downtrodden, tired, and done with everything in my life when I heard the Lord whisper… “welcome to the broad place.” … Wait! What?!? I’m not in the broad place, Lord! I am currently living in the depths of despair! Confused and bewildered by what I heard, I pushed it to the back of my mind and continued feeling sorry for myself. Several weeks had passed by as I pondered that God told me I was in this so-called amazing “broad place” he had promised me when a revelation entered my mind. What if the broad place isn’t God changing my circumstances, but what if the broad place is God changing me?
The broad place God had promised was never a location or a circumstance taking me into the promised land. It wasn’t breakthrough or God magically positioning me where I always believed I was “meant” to be all of that time. The broad place was a mindset. God had no interest in changing my circumstances. He was much more concerned about changing my heart and my mind.
This perspective shift of the broad place began to expand my understanding of what was happening around me. I started looking at my life through a different lens…a higher lens. I embraced the process that God was taking me through rather than resisting it. The experiences that once felt like a burden turned into a blessing. The circumstances I faced daily weren’t as hard as they had once seemed. The mundane chore of being a stay-home mom started to feel like freedom, and I saw my life, not through the eyes of the flesh but eyes of the spirit.
I want to encourage you today that if you felt like you have in a place of waiting on God to change your circumstances, perhaps, in reality, he is trying to change you. God is in the people business. He is more concerned with you than your circumstances after all the word of God says, “Consider it pure joy my brothers and sister whenever you face trials of many kinds.” James 1:2-4. God is more interested in your heart than what’s going on around you, and many times, he will use your challenging circumstances to your advantage by changing you amid the difficult conditions.
God did rescue me and broke open a beautiful broad place, but it wasn’t through changing my circumstance; it was by transforming my mindsets. I encourage you to allow the Lord to work within you, bringing you into that beautiful broad place of changing you from the inside out. Allowing him to be Lord of your life and not merely just a God you worship when it suits you. Allow him to change you instead of your circumstance because it is in those moments of coming to the end of yourself are when you genuinely find him!
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” James 1:2-4
“Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If you truly want to follow me, you should at once completely reject and disown your own life. And you must be willing to share my cross and experience it as your own, as you continually surrender to my ways. For if you choose self-sacrifice and lose your lives for my glory, you will continually discover true life. But if you choose to keep your lives for yourselves, you will forfeit what you try to keep. For even if you were to gain all the wealth and power of this world with everything it could offer you—at the cost of your own life—what good would that be? And what could be more valuable to you than your own soul?” Mark 15:24-26
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” Romans 12:2